My life has been interesting in a host of ways. Nothing much has gone as I would have planned. This goes for both good and bad things. I can offer no commentary on whether this is good or bad, but I cannot make heads or tails of my life presently. I have no idea where this thing called life is heading, but I think it is headed somewhere. I believe God has some sort of plan for me. I am grateful that God has a plan for me, and that I don’t have to know what it is.
I believe that God is steering things in my life. Time after time God has pushed me into different places. I always come back from those places a lot wiser. So far this hasn’t added up to much as far as results. I think it will at some point. The places I go and things I experience makes me different. I am becoming different and I think that is something I can use.
As I become more different than your average person I can see things in a different way. That might be a gift. To have a different perspective I suspect you must have a different kind of life. I am living that for sure. I think more and more all the time about how to use this different perspective.
I think I must take action. I don’t know the action, but some sort of action is important, otherwise experiences are just stories in my head. I have been more focused and bold with my writing, I think that is action. There are likely other actions I must find to follow my path. I don’t know the path, but God does, and I can accept that until he reveals it to me.