My career has never really gone that right.  I have been out of college for 12 years now without a lot of high points in my career.  At this point there is a lot of shame and avoiding all sorts of conversational topics.  People ask how is work going?  Well I don’t really work.  Can you come to this thing?  Well maybe if I can borrow my parents’ car that night.  A lot of conversations are hard for me anymore that a lot of people find easy.

As I sit here and write I am getting ready to see a friend I have not seen in a couple years.  I’m happy to get to see my friend.  I am also a bit mortified because I have to answer a bunch of questions.  How are you doing?  Well not so good, that’s how I’m always doing.  Once we get past that part of talking about how my life is a total clusterfuck we’ll talk about other stuff.  Some of the stuff we talk about will be hard to talk about for me, but I’ll fake it and get through it.  Some of the stuff will be easy to talk about.

My writing will be easy to talk about.  I am doing a lot of writing, I enjoy it, and it’s easy to talk about.  I don’t have much pretense about what I’m doing.  I just write for me and to try and help other people.  It feels right and it feels right to talk about.

My workouts and personal training feel good to talk about.  When I talk about this stuff, I am in command.  I don’t feel hesitation.  Even when I don’t have a clue about something, I am centered in my uncertainty.  I’m just confident in what I know and don’t know.  I am confident I can figure out what I need to know.  This stuff just feels right in every way.

In my previous lives and jobs, I didn’t often feel centered and in command like this.  Often I would feel unbalanced.  I felt like I was trying not to be found out.  I don’t feel like that when discussing these new things.  I don’t know if I would call it a sign, but it could be a hint.

The ease of these conversations, is the kind of hint I try and follow.  I try and lean into this kind of ease.  It’s the kind of hint I could miss if I’m not careful.  In otherwise awkward and hard conversations, what feels good to you?

These are the breadcrumbs I try and follow.  The guide on the path forward can be this kind of hint, not always a loud roadmap.

Every week I spend a lot of time reading and looking for new ways to get stronger, healthier and more awesome.  Here are some of the best things I have found this week.

Strength And Conditioning

A good video going through how to use the box squat.  Applicable to most people since we all sit down and get up from things.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N4AJ03LAEQU

A good rundown of exercises that can make you brutally strong that are not seen a whole lot in the gym.  https://joshstrength.com/2021/09/5-unappreciated-strength-exercises/

Mindset

More from Steven Pressfield about dealing with Resistance.  https://stevenpressfield.com/2021/09/just-write-the-damn-thing/