I Still Believe

There was a time when I believed in so many things.  I believed I could do anything.  I believed there was truth to be found in the mouths of political leaders.  I was a young man with the views of a young man.  This has changed, victories and defeats alike have changed me.  I see more of the truth of the world.  I recognize that in many cases there is no benefit to believing in most things.  This could be a catalyst for cynicism and coldness, but it hasn’t become that.  I burn brighter, I feel more warmth than ever before.  As so many of my beliefs fall away, I am grateful for the things I believe in more than ever.

To believe in so many things serves no purpose.  I don’t think it serves any purpose to believe in a politician.  Some believe in athletes or celebrities, I see no point in that.  Others believe in Star Wars, or Netflix, or YouTube, or any number of things.  I view this as misplaced belief, and it serves no purpose in my mind.

Belief is a thing I can place.  I can place my belief in any number of things.  I must choose these places wisely though.  When belief is placed, we create an expectation or a relationship with something.  This is a powerful force not to be taken lightly.  I find it powerful that I can still enjoy or participate in a thing without belief.  When I was younger I had belief and energy put into so many things.  I can’t bring myself to put my belief in many of those things.

The judicious application of belief seems to be on the road to wisdom.  There are so many things that I still believe in.  I believe in these things more than ever.  I have not become the cynic, I have become the fanatic.  I am so immensely grateful that I grow stronger in my beliefs and centered in them as time progresses.  I don’t believe in as many things as before, but I still believe.

I still believe in God.  I believe God has a plan for me.  I believe all the twists and turns and pains of my life have been put before me for a reason.  I cannot say what this plan is, but I believe God has done everything for a reason.  I stay centered in the belief that all of this stuff in my life matters.

Throughout my life family has remained important and central.  With all the love and all the memories, I don’t know how I couldn’t believe in them. 

True friendship is a force so powerful, it begs to be believed in and thus I believe.

I may believe in other things, these are the most powerful though.  I don’t need to believe in much else to make it through this world.  In the darkest of days I am grateful I can rest my faith and belief in this things.  I am grateful I have not lost the faith, and I still believe.