“I have no idea what to do.” I told myself this looking in the bathroom mirror at the public library. I spend much of my time there these days. The wifi is free, and they let you hangout all day which is a good deal. This is where I go to do my “work.” What my “work” consists of any given day is a mystery. I have a little bit of client work I do. I have a zombie startup I have been working on, I call it a zombie, because it might be dead at this point, I don’t really know. My career is not going all that well, I need a job, and I have no idea how to get one.
I lack a clear path forward towards any job. My resume and work experience are lacking, I am working to remedy that, but that is still the fact. My health is compromised so that limits options a lot. These realities purge a lot of the simple solutions. It looks and feels like there are no reasonable options in front of me. I have no idea what to do.
When I have no idea what to do, I feel like I have no control. As a Christian though, should I have ever thought I was in control anyways? God is in control, the Bible says that in countless places. Trying to be in control, when God is, well that seems like a path to stress and everything not good. I can work, I can try hard, but the fact is I am never the boss and in control. Trying to wrassle control from God is like trying to wrassle a Grizzly bear, it’s just not going to go well.